wednesday, april 30, 2008

There was a night, many years go now, when I was sleeping beneath a tarp and blankets woven beneath branch poles in a lean to against a big rock. High up in a wilderness preserve in the Colorado Rockies, I was at a small gathering- a drum festival in the mountains. There were many things I learnt during that two week period which still haunt me. With over ten years between me and that occurrence… it was a time, that I stepped far into another world, walking the thin line between dream and reality, and felt myself to be a voyager, bringing back messages from the beyond.

 

During those cold snowy nights that I slept with a rock as my pillow, huddled against a fire pit alone in a shelter I was shown things by intangible forces that previously I had deemed impossible. These stories I rarely share, as they are to most, implausible. Yet nevertheless, what began on that night infected my awareness for evermore, and I began to understand time as an illusion as the veils of reality reached their thinnest, most easily pierced point. For years leading up to this period and for many moons hereafter, things have not been the same. Amongst other things, I have observed objects appear out of the ethers as if placed before me by unseen hands.

 

Now ‘Crazy’ is the first word I think of myself, a word so elequently described by Gnarls Barkley.... but truly, the truth is crazier than fiction…

 

In the world of quantum physics, astro and meta- the statements “I think therefore I am” and “in the beginning was the word” are more than waxing lyrical philosophical spiritual dogma. They are a calling into being within the causal principals of manifestation. For the truth is, the world is a reflection of our perception, and what we think is what we create.

 

Picasso, when he was asked what he seeks in his work, answered “I don’t seek, I find”.

I think that deep spiritual seekers look for one thing. The truth. And once those gates

of self knowledge and awareness are unlocked, the path of finding becomes available to the more enlightened consciousness. For me, after many years of exploring, the process has become simplified and it is now like breathing. An intimate intertwining of my deepest spirituality with my highest dream, creating art and creating the life I am living are part and parcel. And somehow, I believe this breath is meant to be shared, a gift made available through me as this tangible instance of my life preserved and held, a moment transpired and captured from the timeless past for the timeless future.